While being a part of Sarah's wedding was absolutely incredible, the wedding bug bit me. I confess that I covet what Christ centered married couples like Sarah&Jay, Mel&Steven, etc. have. I try to self soothe by talking myself down from the tree I climbed up into. I try to talk myself into contentment with singleness. Then I get mad because I am discontent. Maybe it's the spring fever that leaves me feeling as if everything around me is moving forward and I'm static.
It's frustrating. Yesterday I came to terms with being frustrated right now. Thank God for my friend April because she helped me realize that it's ok to be frustrated. I'm also frustrated with myself because I keep returning to the dating websites and yet, for some reason I can't even put my finger on what I want. It's like going shopping without knowing what you're looking for...but you know that when you see it, you'll know. All the dating websites seem to be the same...except some are free (thus increasing the frequency of booty call messages) and some are not free. I hardly ever bare my soul like this on the interwebs, but I'm thankful for it. So if you're reading this and find yourself in a similar spot, I hope you take comfort in the fact that you're not alone.
